a week ago today, actually right around this very time, we (my parents and sister and i) had to say goodbye to our beloved dog, iggy. those of you who know iggy know what a huge part of our family he was (like most dogs) but this one...i dunno. i'm pretty sure my parents (at least my dad) considered him a human more than my sister or i. so after a long weekend (friday/saturday/sunday) of my parents and during some points, myself being in and out of the doggie ER (which is no cheap feat) we were told that the vet from earlier in the weekend had been basically, wrong, and that Iggy was suffering from cardimyapathy. which is heart disease. he was also in congestive heart failure at that point and his heart was functioning at a very low percentage. he was getting progressivly worse throughout Monday morning and so we made the decision to say goodbye... it's been a week and i know that going to my parents on Thanksgiving is going to be so super hard b/c he won't be here... now, we are really going to have to wash the dishes instead of just letting him lick them and putting them away. I'M KIDDING! but seriously... he's been gone a week and hopefully, my mom and dad will get another dog soon. not to replace him b/c NOTHING could replace this guy but to make the house feel a little more normal....
Iggy Czarniecki... 6.9.02-11.14.11
overall, this has not been the best year... i mean there were some high points... my sister got married. we went to a bunch of weddings. friends got engaged, are buying houses and having babies.. that stuff is all great and i'm very happy for each of those friends who have had the good things happen. but overall, this year has sucked. tornado- lots of damage to my parents house. really stressful event in general and something i'm going to spend every summer praying to avoid... a hurricane- which provided us some damage both for us and my parents but that ultimately didn't stop our trip to new hampshire or hinder my sister's cape cod wedding. and the last freak-o-nature snow storm that tore up our yard and trees and just sucked in general.
don't get me wrong. i am VERY thankful for the things i do have and not just b/c it's almost thanksgiving. i'm thankful for these things all year long and it seems kind of cliche to be "thankful" just b/c it's thanksgiving on thursday but why not take advantage of it right? the people i am thankful for know that i am thankful for them. b/c i take the opportunity to say thank you...
on that note... i have a hard time with words. not saying them or using them b/c let's be honest i can easily talk to anyone. but i have been thinking lately about the way we use certain words. i actually dedicated 4 handwritten pages of a letter (yes, imagine that, an old fashioned, hand-written, letter) to talking about the overuse of the words i love you, just for the sake of saying "i love you". okay so not a whole 4 pages but still... i'm not saying you shouldn't say that you love someone. in fact, if you do, i think you should say it b/c too often we don't get to say it until it's too late to say it (hey, deep thought). but i think it's a go-to word for a lot of things. i "love" this or that or her or him or that thing or something that happened... but really, do you LOVE it? or is it just something you enjoy or really like or it makes you happy. i mean, you can use "love", who am i to shut down your feelings on the situation? but i just feel like sometimes, and even i am so very guilty of this, we overuse the word love when we can't find anything else to say. there are a lot of things i really enjoy, things that make me happy and things that i look forward to. but if i really stop to think about it, the things i truely LOVE are harder to come by. i guess it's all based on your definition of love and if you are saying that love can have different values or that it can in fact be more of a tiered approach. just something i've been pondering lately...
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